birthday men | droo

it was my great mate's birthday a week ago | a mercurial, amusing & handsome fella i have known for not even 2 years yet but who has had an influence on my thinking & life that he is not even aware of | we see each other occasionally as i pass his abode every march & sometimes in melbourne when visiting for male to male or male to many males primal experiences | droo & i share a love for the word cunt & he is the only gen Y fella i really know | i will no doubt spend the rest of my life trying to see inside a gen Y brain, ouch! ... he is the guinea pig | heh droo ... thanks for just being droo

birthday women | janiece

it is my great friend Janiece's birthday this july | we went to Uni together & were both viewed as a bit wacky by most | she is the only person to make me laugh with a mouthful full of cheesecake & the result being a large projectile spray of cheesecake granules & biscuit base over the front window of a neat adelaidean cafe for all on the street & inside the cafe to see | Janiece is my closest link to the Empress Eugenie of France, caus she looks like her love child! lol | happy birthday to such an important friend of which no subject is verbotten & who i miss dreadfully on my island paradise

birthday women | judy

it is my great friend Judy's birthday this july | a former employee who's joie de vive knows no bounds | we clicked the day we met & have been touchstones for each other & helped each other discover that men & careers are a fine balance & that 'teams' in the workplace are a crap concept way past its use by date ... we both believe in benevolent aesthetic facism as a leadership approach | Judy is my only link to Jacqueline Kennedy Onassis as she is her love child, true! | happy birthday to JB & much love & affection to a friend who has been so supportive & ready to wisk me off to the latest & grooviest eateries & bars of Melbourne ... miss you awfully

phrases not sentences

after much cajoling from mates of mine, virtual & physical, i have scheduled time in to update | but not in a long winded way | am going to use the traditional literature form of arab culture & use phrases to communicate rapidly! | read Naguib Mahfouz and you will understand

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listened to Camille Saint-Saens 3 movement from his Organ Symphony this morning & cried | finished Anne de Courcy's sometimes light but galloping newly published bio of Lord Snowdon & discovered another human being who, like me, compartmentalises his life | am nursing 2 dogs & 1 cat after a job lot, group discount on desexing on Thursday & all are languorous, sad, resentful & planning revenge in my absence | am completely shattered by my new mega $ management role & mustn't fall into past behaviour of letting it control not only my waking but also my non-waking hours | the beautiful douglas spent last weekend with a shell 'shlocked' me | my mate ian moved out to work & live in bendigo | am alone again & enjoying the hermit like existence & raking leaves whenever there is light on this island | haven't thought of sex or smiled at any hot pulp mill worker for 5 days until right now ... aw shit, that's my reflection! lol | saw sex n the city ... yawn really, as it was a bit lame & i was not convinced of 'big's character | he being my favourite character as i am so like him | went with my female alta ego Wendy [see below] my intellectual sparring partner so naturally we picked the script to death but did laugh at all the right places, although no one else in the audience did | does that mean gen y & 'gen-lite' don't get irony? | maybe USA cultural imports are finally inflitrating to the core of the ironic australian psyche | caus in my experience, admittedly of many USA men [rephrase ... beefy hot but ultimately dull men] , the irony thing just don't happen with em!

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participated in a landmark Tasmanian community engagement project yesterday as a 'living book' as part of the 'living library launceston' program | my book title is 'not the only gay in the village' | talk about being popular! | 3 people 'read' me in the space of 2 hrs ... felt like being on an extreme chat show where the audience does the interviewing & not some tedious baby boomer presenter | a fantastic & rare opportunity to dispel some myths about a gay man who ain't 100% gay

knowing what you want

a tough day of analysing what i want re work | da money or da gun? | being sick & pathetic with a head cold, tedious as that is, is no excuse not to resolve my situation | had been offered a fantastic role but at the bottom rung of salary ... piss off! | i haven't reached the age of 43 without a bucket load of skills, knowledge, competencies, corporate & govt management experience & a track record of producing the best teams & change management scenarios

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am experiencing that contemporary experience of the ápple isle' | amateurism | & here is an opportunity for me to lead & change to the benefit of a whole lot of people however for some reason the decision makers can't see back beyond the previous 18 months, as if one didn't have any success on the big northern island ... | tomorrow is D day

a man & a man & a love affair

for the last 3 days i have had the pleasure of spending much of my time in the furrie arms of my dream still true | the handsome douglas

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words, as limited as they can sometimes can be, to describe our time together would include | lust . wine . rope . gardens . indiana jones . furr . masculinity . embrace . luv . passion . warmth . saint-saens . chests . ink . omlettes . dogs . intensity . restraint . fires . electric blankets . icecream . romance

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the most important physical pleasure for us is to hold hands ... always ... love to D forever

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obama in ... hillary somewhere ... extraordinary | long overdue & perhaps proof that rhetoric over experience wins the minds of many | very Elizabeth I who's ability to call upon the skills of rhetoric, she learned under the tutelage of tutor Robert Ascham in the 16th century, ensured a place in history, even if she was variable in her monarchial skill

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the matching of rhetoric & emotional intelligence far outweighs years of experience | experience doesn't always prepare you for the unknown | emotional intelligence always does | if you keep having the same experience, you will also repeat the same mistakes